Samantha the awesome

2012-01-31T22:09:00.002+08:00

Someone made me really pissed today. Like seriously damn angry. And so we argued till my mood became really bad. Then my mum came out and we quarreled over a very small matter. Haiz.

In any case, although the argument was just left hanging there, I'm grateful to the friends around me, all the bowlers who made me feel so much better, szewei for that whatsapp (I'm quite surprised and touched), wheel for being there, Rachel for making the situation better, Steven for trolling -.- and last but not least Sabs (:

Thankyou friends I love y'all

School's starting

2012-01-08T17:02:00.003+08:00

School's starting and I just started chionging most of my holiday homeworks a few days back. Thanks to awesome friends I have completed GP homework which was hell lot. Math is done and chem is almost done, how awesome is that? I've dropped physics from H2 to H1 so I hope the MCQ test doesn't apply to H1 students if not I'm screwed cos I just found out about it :O

The last few weeks of the holidays was by far the best in my holidays, shoppings, sleepover, bowling+arcade+swimming+dimsum @ NSRCC with my cousins followed by bowling trainings, camp, friendly match with MJ (saw Evelyn and Renee!), lunches with bowlers, bridging and asshole daideeing with them, mugging with them, chionging GP homework with them, whatsapp convo with them, watching TV shows with them and the list goes on. Got closer to the bowlers and I kinda like their company (:

I'm so bored now and I really cant wait for the bowlers to come online and play viwawa (: Looking forward to team lunch, meeting at bowling table in the morning and mugging tmr! Hahahahah!

Thank god it was a joke. Shall do chem e learning in a while (so hardworking right, I know)

Feelings

2011-11-03T22:40:00.003+08:00

It has been almost 2 weeks. Time seriously flies. Tmr is I and R submission and tues is OP, that will be the end of OP. Yes its damn fast. Everything's gonna be over in a glance. Really glad that all this will be done though I really dont mind spending more time with my group mate.

This week was really the most happening week of my life. Everything happened this week. It started on the friday. I'm seriously at a loss. I dont know what I should do. Talked to someone about it, and it helped slightly. And on Sat, my beloved grandpa passed away. I know its a fact, life still goes on. Many people have consoled and pushed me on but what I really need isnt that I guess. I need time. I still feel the pinch of sadness everytime I walk into my grandpa's room wanting to take a look at him just to realise that he isnt around anymore. Just by staring at the photographs of him alone can make me tear. I really miss my grandpa alot. I want him back. If I'm hurting so much at the loss of my grandpa, I'm sure my dad feels much more. Its the first time and probably almost the last I would see him crying. I really want to rewind time and spend all the time with my grandpa. Now I've learnt and I'm going to treasure and treat my grandma extremely well, even better than before. I hope that my grandpa will come back and visit me in my dreams soon. I really want to see him again. :(

After that followed a week of grand funeral. So shocked at the response. So my relatives were right about my grandpa being an influential and respected man. Everyday there would be at least 100s of people at the funeral. Ytd was the worse, I felt like I was torn apart as I watch my grandfather's coffin moving into the cremating thing. I still cant get over and I dont think I will ever get over it.

Today's someone's day, and I've got some things to say but I'm not sure if I should post it here. Anw Happy Birthday friend. (:

2011-08-14T00:38:00.000+08:00

Love how you made my day <3

Pillar.

2011-07-24T20:24:00.003+08:00

Had a really enjoyable day out today. A friend just reminded me of something really important. From today I will start cultivating good habits and eliminating all my bad habits, one at a time.

Wanted to blog about the unhappy moments of the day but decided against it. Unhappy moments should be erased from our memories and so I shall not blog about it in case I read it in future.

I just realised the first half of the year has passed. Time flies. And this first half of the year was so aimless. I've got goals, but I never written them out. Maybe that's the reason why I never achieved any. Shall start writing my goals and working towards them. Hopefully the next half of 2011 will be better.

You mean more than you think you mean. I like you more than you think I do.

Horoscopes.

2011-07-24T20:12:00.002+08:00

2011-05-24T22:51:00.003+08:00

I'm so glad I created a blog. Like thankfully I suppressed whatever I was feeling just so I can spill it all out here. I used to share my problems with friends through phone calls but its kinda impossible to answer or make any calls with my parents back in Singapore. I won't say their return is something I dreaded, in fact, I have been longing for their return. Now that things aren't going the way I expected, I kinda fear for the future. If this is going to happen continuously, I'll lose all I used to treasure.

I remembered that at one of the TOOP meetings last year, I was asked to write down 3 important things. I wrote family ties as one of them. Yes, I really treasured every single minute with my family, and this is valid till date. But please, I'm in JC, I think they need to understand that I cannot spend as much time with y'all as before. June holidays is no longer a time for play, its time to study and buck up so as to pass JCTs. And hello, the only time I actually get to enjoy is during bowling chalet, so why must you be so reluctant to let me go?

Well, that's how awesome JC life is. No time for family causing frequent quarrels which resulted in me drifting away from my family. Today just triggered everything. Its just a bad day as a whole. Bad mood during piano lesson, got pissed off by brother, missed the bus, quarreled with my parents, had issues with friends.

Okay, enough about my parents, now to whatever happened in school. I gotta admit that I have been avoiding some people in school and I can't help it. I'm not prepared to face you. Idk if you saw me avoiding you but I just gotta let you know that I'm sorry. I want things to be better but I really can't face you now that things have turned out this way. Anw since you've found someone else to spend time with/on, all I can say is GOOD LUCK and THANKS FOR BEING MY FRIEND.

I know I told myself that I can be stronger, yes I know I can. I shall bear in mind some stuff I learnt this week. Always always chill and try to think of things in the better light. Never let your mood affect others. Be strong, crying is never the solution, it only makes you feel better to some extent. Sleep early.

I feel so much better so much so that I can type: I LOVE YOU, ________. Thanks for making my day. You're really like a guardian angel. You text me on the right days at the right times, cheering me up and motivating me. Thank you so much. <3

2011-05-16T00:28:00.001+08:00

I'm so tired, I feel like sleeping but I can't theoryy :(

2011-05-05T18:52:00.000+08:00

Sadly, no one is able to do that. Yet.

2011-05-05T18:40:00.002+08:00

2011-04-14T21:27:00.004+08:00

I'm sorry to say, I won't be able to treat you as before because of that one sentence.

I'm sorry to say that I hate it when guys twit.

I'm sorry for being so mean to someone who deserves to be treated better.

I'm sorry for hurting anyone.

I'm sorry for hurting myself, for giving myself such high expectations. Its not the first time such things has happened. I know I can do it, I will tide through this. PROVE YOURSELF, SAMANTHA. Don't ever let others look down on you.

Losers are those who looks down on people.

Losers judge people.

Losers are lousy friends because good friends do not look down on you, good friends won't judge you. Good friends help you through tough times and smile along with you when you are happy. Good friends go crazy with you, good friends accept you for who you are.

To my good friends, Valerie Wong and Sabrina Quek thank you for being so spastic, lovely, caring, awesome, crazy, the list goes on.

Kaiwen, thank you for everything. (:

PI draft one got pwned by Awesamantha

2011-03-31T02:26:00.003+08:00

I don't like the way things are right now, weird and all. ARGH OKAY I SHOULD STOP THINKING ABOUT IT AND SLEEP INSTEAD. (: I AM DONE WITH PI. YEAH MANN. But its only draft 1-.-

2011-03-27T13:06:00.002+08:00

I can't concentrate when I need to, that really sucks. Shall attempt to start on my PI.

2011-03-22T10:10:00.000+08:00

I feel so left out seriously

How?

2011-03-20T18:22:00.001+08:00

I really dk what to do now. I want everything back to normal. I don't want anyone hurt.

Bathing

2011-03-18T23:31:00.002+08:00

Its amazing how I love and hate to bathe. I hate to drag myself to bathe but I love the feeling after a bath. For me, whenever I am troubled or sad or angry I will take a bath and most of the time it works! That's why bathing rocks!

Hehhh I know this is a damn random post but I decided to post this to revive the blog (:

I don't wanna hurt you.

2011-03-16T01:20:00.000+08:00

I hope that it isn't me.

Finally an update! (:

2011-03-14T22:12:00.000+08:00

I shall change my screwed up blogskin tmr!

I need a 2011 New Year resolution.

2011-01-23T14:27:00.002+08:00

I can't wait to grow up, really. Even though the working world might be much more complex and all, but I am really looking forward to it. I want to earn money, so that I can finally spend it without feeling guilty or anything. And when I grow up, I can do whatever I like, go where ever I want with whoever I like.

I seriously HATE being doubted and controlled.

I got to save money for many reasons.

I want new shoes, bags, clothes.

I need a 2011 New Year resolution.

I wish for a miracle.

I hope for the best.

I realised something.

AB, I am gonna trash you

2011-01-18T00:08:00.003+08:00

I hate doing animations I swear! I was super pek chek just now. But oh wells I am done with it!!! WOOHOOOO!

A big THANKYOU to those who are always there for me. I love you guys!

P.S I am not emo (Many ppl asked me today) So yeah, I am not emo, just unhappy with some people in my life. However, I gotta live with it. So JY to myself!

To you, thank you for being my motivation (though you don't know, hahahahahahahaha)

I will be a better person this year

2011-01-13T18:17:00.005+08:00

I don't know why I have been thinking so much lately. Just a few days back, I kept on thinking about how the year was so far. It was only then that I realised that I have already wasted 13 days of the year doing nothing but slacking. I need motivation to start doing some serious work, like completing my weekly reflections which was supposed to be summited last weekends. Somehow I hope that WOW was a choice, like we get to opt to do it or not to. Although animations are fun, but its kinda tedious and I get super sick of doing them now.

I don't know what's wrong with me but I have been feeling super lethargic for the past few days, even with complete 8 hours of sleep. I sort of have an answer to that, and that might also be the reason why I get pissed/impatient with people lately. I apologise for being that way, and I promise that I will try to be a nicer person the next few days.

I really can't stand people who have low EQ, like I know it isn't their fault for being that way, but its really annoying me now. Firstly, when someone is angry or pissed, STOP IRRITATING THEM. Secondly, be more responsible. Thirdly, stop asking the same questions over and over again when you already got the answer. It doesn't stop here, but I do not want to elaborate further. Yeah, I think I need to relax. We need to have a cool off period, so I am hoping that you don't talk to me or irritate me any further. Yup. (I know you don't read blogs, but really, please stop being so C.)

Sometimes I really wished that there was someone there to answer all the questions in my head. These questions has been bugging me for a very long time, even my heart can't really give the right answer. On one hand, I think I have fallen for a particular someone, and its nice how I didn't tell anyone about it. But on the other, I still miss you. More than one person told me that the reason why I miss you is because I still can't let go of you and that I still like you. But I really hate the way you lie to save yourself and also the way you treat me. You were really nice to me when you first knew me, but after making new friends, you start talking/texting/msn-ing them and then you get close to them. Though you are not the one on my mind right now, but every time I think back, I can really feel the heartache. Hope you are doing fine right now. Thank you for the things you gave me, the memories, and I miss texting/skyping/msn-ing/fb-ing/calling you.

I miss texting the people I normally text. (Are we having a cold war? Or are you also becoming like him? Why are most guys like that?) I went NEX today and I realised that instead of looking for you there, I was trying my best not to bump into you. I hope that I can be brave enough to text you and solve this problem.

I need to thank my friends on the same attachment as me for bring laughter and joy to my life. I love you guys. And to my sick and spastic senior, get well soon.

2010-12-29T01:41:00.001+08:00

2010-12-29T01:33:00.001+08:00

2010-12-28T01:16:00.001+08:00

2010-12-27T01:25:00.002+08:00

S[he's] br[ok]en

2010-12-26T21:41:00.004+08:00

You are such a flirt;

S[he's] br[ok]en

2010-12-26T02:44:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GERALD!

2010-12-26T02:19:00.004+08:00

2010-12-24T19:39:00.000+08:00

2010-12-24T14:20:00.001+08:00

2010-12-23T21:24:00.001+08:00

2010-12-22T21:53:00.000+08:00

2010-12-20T01:02:00.002+08:00

Its no longer my world, but rather, you.

2010-12-19T18:45:00.010+08:00

~~My world~~ You

You took over my world, for you are always on my mind and every single move you make is affecting me so badly. I really need someone to save me from falling any deeper, someone to save me from tears, someone to fill my heart, someone worthy of my care, concern and love.

Please,

Guide me and lead me out of his world.

Hold on to my hand and assure me that its gonna be alright, that you will be there for me and that I should not worry so much.

Hug me and tell me to cry it all out and your shoulder is there if I need it.

Warm me with your love.

Touch me with your care.

Now, tell me that it ain't a dream, for I am tired of dreaming.

2010-12-10T17:48:00.001+08:00

Random much but I am shifting to Hougang for 3 mths! :D Can't wait!

2010-11-26T21:50:00.002+08:00

Emo Nemo

2010-11-17T22:17:00.002+08:00

I HAVE TO CONTROL MY FEELINGS.

Why do I get so pissed off easily nowadays. I need to tell myself to chill. Why do you have to care so much? I AM NOT YOUR DAUGHTER. Besides, my dad don't even give a damn about it. Its only malaria pills. And you said not to take it if i can't find the time to see the doc. So you mean you want me to die? And every time I do smthing wrong, you DO NOT HAVE TO BRING MY PARENTS INTO THE STORY. LEAVE THEM OUT OF IT. You can insult me, but NOT MY PARENTS.

And its really hard to control our feelings. Easier said than done.

Is it true that if there's a will there's a way?

If thats true, then maybe my will is not that strong.

Please Samantha, this is not the right time.

No matter how much your heart's going to hurt,

Just let it hurt, the feeling will go off.

IT WILL.

Every accomplishment starts with the decision to try.”

2010-10-30T15:28:00.004+08:00

Goshhh, that's what i need to do

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.

2010-10-25T19:37:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WUCHUN!!!

2010-10-10T21:27:00.001+08:00

Here's a photo of my husband's bestie! He's handsome rightttt! Happy Birthdayy Wuchun! Best wishes from Arron and Samantha! HAHAHAHAHAHA

Mixed feelings

2010-10-10T21:21:00.004+08:00

I don't know if I should regret realising how arrogant you are, or be glad to know you better.

Seriously, THIS IS GETTING ON MY NERVES.

14 more days to suffer, 19 more days to freedom.

2010-09-19T16:22:00.010+08:00

Yozors!

According to my countdown its only 14 days to promos! Fast huh. Wow, one year past so quickly. The orientation feeling is somewhat still lingering. Oh well, its time to get down to work and mug for promos. Easier said than done but I decided to make a timetable for myself to study, starting today, i know its abit late but I still have to start!

Everyone's mugging now. Its super scary. Jiayou everyone and jiayou to myself.

It has been a hard time, really hard time. Its just never the same as before. We used be so excited that we can go home tgt. But now, it seems like you are avoiding me, the feeling i get is that you dislike seeing me there. Well, there are things i wished to clarify, a lot in fact but this is just not the right time. After promos maybe, maybe. Oh well, i really wished things will be better.

Starbucks (Simei, Tamp, Parkway, Siglap), Hanis (or Hans yeah Hans), Parkway, Marine Parade Library, Sakae Sushi, Tamp Library, Siglap, School. I really missed those times, even the time i cried when you ignored me. Friendships. Friendships. Friendships. Friendships. Friendships. Friendships. Friendships. Friendships. Friendships. Friendships. Friendships. Friendships. Friendships. Friendships. Friendships.

Internet!

2010-09-12T21:05:00.006+08:00

After living without internet for 3 weeks. Not really 3 whole weeks but almost everyday of the 3 weeks, i realised the importance of internet. Without internet, i can sleep as early as 9pm, or maybe even earlier. Thats one of the reason why the blog is not updated. Another reason would probably be either due to exams or my lazy self.

Okay, this holidays was rather unproductive. Idk why i keep slacking away. But at least i can say that today was productive. I managed to finish intermediate maths paper. Yes, thats the only homework i did throughout the one week of holidays. Secondly, i shifted to the new house! Yayzors internet, swimming pool and others! Thats why i ended up getting drawn into the pool while doing maths halfway. Swimming was the only productive thing this holiday, I swam twice and i managed to swim freestyle properly! (: Yay! While swimming i keep thinking about polo. Sigh, i miss polo. I ttly regret not letting my dad know about it earlier. If not i would have played for polo!

On a random note, I lost weight even after eating ice cream everyday! I think swimming works! I shall make it a point to swim more frequently! Yupz, and random but idk why guys like girls with fair skin. I don't see why. But i love being tanned so yeah! (:

Woohoo, after promos or chinese O's, I am looking forward to

1) Shop

2) Iphone

3) Lose weight

4) Go sentosa (Universal Studios and others)

5) Picnic

6) Rollerblading

7) Class Chalet

8) Bowling Camp

9) TOOP

10) Watching dramas!

11) Stayovers

Etc.

Oh and the foto above is my msn background cool huh!

2010-08-06T00:20:00.000+08:00

Coincidental much but the timing of the previous post was 11.11 wth. Omgosh.

Tears are words the heart can't express

2010-08-05T23:23:00.003+08:00

Warning. This post is super emotional. So if you don't want to be affected. Please don't read it.

Okay yes. Today's a bad day. Everything's coming in at the wrong time.

I cleared stuff but still. There are other words locked in my heart. I just don't know how to say it.

I admit that i am really bad at handling relationships.

Yes. I am immature, i know. And that's why people should not even like me as in in that way.

I finally bottled my feelings today, unfortunately only after talking to some people.

And its not really those people, its everyone that made an effort to show care and concern towards me. Everyone that shared what they feel. Everyone that told me what was the right thing to do. Everyone that guided me when i needed it. Everyone that will always be there for me. Everyone that cheered me up.

I finally made a huge step in changing my life today. Life has been seriously bad after i enter TA. Firstly, its more competitive. Secondly, I miss my best friend in TK. Thirdly, guys. Yes guys. Relationships. I believe that it will come naturally and its not surprising that i like any guys in TA or whatsoever. Its natural, but after everything, i keep telling myself not to like anyone. For one reason, i am afraid of being hurt. And for another, I don't see the point in getting into a relationship.

Since TA1, i rmb. It started and ended. And after that ppl started teasing me about this another person and they are still teasing. After that it was him. After him, i decided that I should not like anymore ppl. These are ppl that i liked, within 2 years. Yes 2 years. So yeah.

Friendship's what matters to me now. And to my friends, thanks for being there. And to those two person that made me cried (i know its not on purpose but yeah) i hope that you'll know that the reason i broke down was cos i cared.

Random but I realised crying over guys is just stupid. Not really stupid but yeah. I rather cry over losing a friend then losing a boyfriend or potential boyfriend or whatever shit.

There's still much more that i want to say, but for now,

I WISH THERE WAS NO SUCH THING AS LOVE IN THE WORLD. I DON'T CARE WHAT IT MEANS, OR HOW IMPORTANT IT IS. FOR NOW. I JUST WANT IT OUT OF MY LIFE.

KTHNXBAI.

Your love is my drug

2010-07-20T23:26:00.003+08:00

I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out. And tell you how I feel- like how I miss talking you and I miss the past. And how I love you. But those words may forever stay in my heart-locked inside. Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know.

The most beautiful view is the one I share with you

2010-07-18T12:54:00.004+08:00

Its a sad thing but i have to learn to say bye to iphone 4. ):

If only i worked harder for Chinese, if only i made one less careless mistake in Physics. If only... I keep saying that. But what's the use. I tried my best for almost all subjects (except Chinese, Sorry GLS and CLS) My dad said "A miss is a mile" while my mum firmly believes that I should be setting high standards for myself. She's expecting an A1 from Higher Chinese O's. How possible is that? Even the top in cohorts are unable to attain it. Enough of ranting i guess. Anw, I'm glad I've set a goal for promos (which i hope i can get). I really regret spoiling my N95 8Gb. Oh well.

Its raining now, and its a super nice day! Rainy days ftw! (I used to hate rainy days but who cares) Random much, but I realised I really gotta start saving money. One month, is it enough? And to a certain someone, thanks for making my day ytd.

LA night discussion ytd was rather productive with a few funny incidents happening inbtwn. And I really have to admit that I am super WISE in spending my money (note the sarcasm). By the end of the week, I'll broke and on top of that, I'm in debt. Actually I don't really regret it. Bowlers love to spend money on food which kinda burn a hole in my pocket but I like it and its definitely a good way of ending the week. Oh, and bowling training changed to Ehub! So much more convenient (except the fact that i don't have a locker there). JTS's coming pretty soon and once again, GOOD FOOD (i hope).

The weather made me super slackish today. My cupboard's empty cos I packed almost all my clothes into boxes! And in 45 mins time, I'll meet Jess and in 4 hours time, HAIRCUT! (:

Homework this week's pretty taxing on me.
I am only done with MEP.
Not to mention the spammage of test next week.
ICAS test tmr, LA test on Thurs, Maths test on Friday and Chinese Test on Friday!

Shall not elaborate cos it's only spoiling my good mood now! (:

Yesterday

2010-07-18T00:39:00.002+08:00

"There is no greater happiness than having you...
and no greater bliss than sharing this life with you.
If I had one breath to spare...If I had just one moment to live...
I would be spending it with you."

How cute can quotes be mann seriously! (:

LA night was awesome ytd, and we are almost done with the script.
Ramesh and her mat call that made the guy turn back and stare at her. -.-
I would like to declare Robin Van Persie is awesome and no one shall spoil my impression of him!

Okay i shall sleep now. Nights world!

Alice in Wonderland.

2010-07-04T15:26:00.003+08:00

"Trying to fit in won't get you anywhere.
Instead, it brings you down.
Or rather, it shows where you stand."

Okay, now i don't think i will post those type of posts anymore.
And when i post them, something's bad really happened.

Oh and to those who're facing problems,
Don't worry. It'll soon be over!
And whatever problem it is,
Good luck in solving that problem!
After that period of time,
You will seriously feel less burdened.
JUST LIKE ME! :D

VIOLINIST <3 (And Goh Chubin, I am not referring to you plz. HAHA)

NICE :D

2010-06-21T22:22:00.006+08:00

Pri Sch gathering was awesome!

In fact, more awesome than the previous one.

We had wii and i ttly own the game.

And ahemm ahemmm Rachel Ong!!

You started the whole studying thing,

And we all started taking our books out.

But in the endddd....

I ended up playing bridge and Rachel ended up playing daidee.

And seriously Isabel is so like Abigail, i keep calling Isabel Abigail.

And spastic much, I like the ending part of the day.

We had much fun, like Qizhi and his shirt with the word _____.

And all the guys changed. They are so much more matured, and more gentlemanly.

Highlights of the day were like:

Qizhi: " C'mon luh, you all keep talking about *** just do it luh"

Qizhi: " I'm not your water hole" after that, Kevin spit more water

Rachel and Alina closing the door and ended up getting stuck in the room.

Kevin breaking Qizhi's box.

Manyy more. Can't recall.

Karaoke was awesome, and wtfreak. Jevin can sing luh. Alina's good too.

And Edwin's retarded. He wanted to stop the bus, but the bus ended up honking him!

At dinner, Jevin, Edwin and me were like talking about bowling stuff and Qizhi was like can you all talk about 6/3 stuff.

Immediately, we talked about Qizhi and ahemm. Funny much.

Okay it was an awesome day.

Thank you guys! I didn't regret going as I am supposed to be studying.

And Isabel you are really a talent at bridge. -.-

And to Qizhi, thanks for organising all the class gathering.

Bon Voyage and rmb to bring your American gf to see us 2 years later k! (:

Okay idk why I am still blogging cos i am supposed to be studying!

But i am just so happy.

Pfft.

2010-06-20T16:14:00.002+08:00

Yes, that's the time i woke up today.
I wasted my whole morning and half of afternoon away.
Just had my brunch.

Oh, random but I hate drinking milk coffees.
I have no idea if it was the caffeine that is taking effect or its just me.
Recently, I have been having a lot of nightmares and all are related to JCTs.

Rachel, i think you are right.
And because of your words, i kept thinking and thinking.
Then i ended up dreaming about it.

I shall take a bath to cool myself down,
anw what's done cannot be undone.
And there isn't a point being angry over it.

Time

2010-06-19T22:59:00.001+08:00

Maths and Physics. Howwww

Studying, Student Dying indeed

2010-06-18T19:18:00.003+08:00

I have only 8 more days!!

Undone:

-Higher Chinese

-Language Arts

-Physics(Im gna fail)

-MEP(Idk what's going on for that)

* Mole Concept?? Functions?? Physics??

Well, JCTs suck. In JC, holidays are not for us to go out. 8 more days to JCT, my schedule for the next few days are rather packed.

Sat: Study MEP @ Abigail's house with ValWong and her, Cousin's house to party or smthing

Sun: FREE (WOW)

Mon: Pri Sch Class Gathering

Tues: Study in school and collect assignments. Get Words, Words, Words

Wed: Piano lesson in the morning, studying (Sch or Home?)

Thurs: Tuition??

Fri: Tuition??

Sat: FREE (WOW)

Sun: FREE (WOW) --> Sleep early.

Mon: JCTs! :(

Imyt

2010-06-18T00:50:00.002+08:00

I just want to tell you that i miss you too.

When you say nothing at all

2010-05-23T13:14:00.003+08:00

It's amazing
How you can speak
Right to my heart
Without saying a word,
You can light up the dark
Try as I may
I could never explain
What I hear when
You don't say a thing

[CHORUS:]
The smile on your face
Lets me know
That you need me
There's a truth
In your eyes
Saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says
You'll catch me
Whenever I fall
You say it best
When you say
Nothing at all

All day long
I can hear people
Talking out loud
But when you hold me near
You drown out the crowd
(The crowd)
Try as they may
They could never define
What's been said
Between your
Heart and mine

朋友比情人还死心塌地

2010-05-23T09:57:00.003+08:00

I just received a mail like this ytd.

You might be best friends one year,
pretty good friends the next year,
don't talk that often the next year,
and don't want to talk at all the year after that.

So, I just wanted to say,
even if I never talk to you again in my life,
you are a friend and you have made a difference in my life,
I look up to you and respect you,

Send this to all your friends,
no matter how often you talk ,
or how close you are,
and send it to the person who sent it to you...

Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them,
and tell new friends you never will...

Remember, everyone needs a friend,
someday you might feel like you have NO FRIENDS at all,
just remember this
and take comfort in knowing
somebody out there cares about you and always will...

I like you
because of who you are to me....A true friend.

Meaningful yeah. Oh wells.

If see that you are trying. Good Job.
Hopefully things will get better.

Another bad day

2010-05-19T10:04:00.002+08:00

We are on the same boat.
But are we going to the same place?

MY LIFE IS PRETTY SCREWED.
Everything is not going well. Everything.
I want to end my pain.
But i have already exhausted what i can do.

If you treasure this,
then i guess you would have to do something about it.
If you don't,
then all i can say is: Thank you for being my friend and standing by me.

I have no choice but to say, I love all my frens
Even if they are hurting me.
I can't bear to do anything to harm any of my fren.
So if I am harming anyone, it is serious unintentional. Oh wells.

Arronyan is uber cute!

My thoughts robbed away my smile

2010-05-17T21:01:00.003+08:00

Arron Yan (L) Is a personalised name just for my love! ARRONYAN!

I have thought about it over and over again.
I am super confused. I need to breathe.
Right now, all i can say is
I love you, Jael.
I miss you, Jessie.

My heart is very brittle now.
So i can't afford to put it in a position where it might fall and break.
Many times, it had fallen and broke.
If it were to break anymore,
I would really be unable fix it back.

Right now there's a space in my heart now.
A space which I don't intend to fill now.

Studies is my main concern now.
I am tired. Physically and emotionally.

I can't wait to see you all, Gerald and Deborah + Mum and Dad

Pondering.

2010-05-13T09:16:00.005+08:00

Yes I love(d) you. I love you more than anything else in this world and there is nothing that I would like better than to hold on to you forever. But I know it's not for the best. So no matter how much my heart is going to break, I've got to let you go so you can know just how much I love you. Maybe if I'm lucky, you'll come back, but if not, I can make it through this.

I've decided to let go, let go of everything i used to hold on to.

I don't know if you are hurting, but I know I definitely am, and that is why I chose to let go.

This applies to everyone that i loved and want to continue loving.

Him!

2010-05-11T22:39:00.001+08:00

Woohoo! Arron Yan.
I shall make it a point to post a foto of Arron everyday <3

I want to learn cycling

2010-05-10T20:27:00.002+08:00

Isn't he cute!

Yan can cycle, so can I.

Arronyan! (:

Chubin says that he can teach me how to cycle :O

But Idk if i should learn from him or not.

Cos Mrs Goh will be jealous! Haizz.

安静

2010-05-10T20:19:00.001+08:00

只剩下钢琴陪我弹了一天
睡着的大提琴安静的旧旧的
我想你已表现的非常明白
我懂我也知道你没有舍不得

你说你也会难过我不相信
牵着你陪着我也只是曾经
希望他是真的比我还要爱你
我才会逼自己离开

你要我说多难堪我根本不想分开
为什么还要我用微笑来带
我没有这种天份包容你也接受他
不用担心的太多我会一直好好过

你已经远远离开我也会慢慢走开
为什么我连分开都迁就着你
我真的没有天份安静的没这么快
我会学着放弃你是因为我太爱你

Nice song! (L)

2010-05-09T12:53:00.000+08:00

直到爱消失你才懂得
去珍惜身边每个美好风景
只是她早已离去

直到你想通她早已经
不再对你留恋最后的你
开始了一段挣扎

你那么爱她为甚么不把她留下
为甚么不说心里话你深爱她
这是每个人都知道啊

你那么爱她为甚么不把她留下
是不是你有深爱的两个她
所以你不想再让自己无法自拔

AWESAMANTHA-- AWESOME SAMANTHA :P

Day 2? Maybe not

2010-05-08T11:43:00.003+08:00

How are we to move on if everything somehow links back
I am trying very hard to not think about it
Firstly, Day 1 wasnt really Day 1.
The song 擦肩而过 had to play while i was eating dinner with seniors.

Bus journey home was scary cos Freddy had to tell me all the scary stories.
Jiaxin is very nice a senior. And i talked to her alot ytd! (:
Reached home kinda msned and fb. Nothing else.
Before i slept i watched BOF. Which i finished watching just start of this year.
Oh I kept my promise to sleep b4 1.50am surprisingly.

Hmm i just realised. If they played 擦肩而过 isnt it supposed to be like a spur for me to move on?
Oh wells. I really do not want to think about it anymore. Studies is my main concern now.
AWESAMANTHA-- AWESOME SAMANTHA :P

Awesome

2010-05-06T20:58:00.002+08:00

Pro. This is the first time in days that my post isnt going to be the usual one with homeworks and emo stuff.

Emo stuff are kinda zzz when i think of it now. But what to do. We cant be happy all times.

But i am gonna heck that. I am super uber happy today!(L)
Woah, it was good and super awesome. Coincidental much
Before tuition was the best part with the epic Vanessa and Earl thing.
My days are finally smooth, like from morning till now. First time in the year.
Everything is falling into place.
Homeworks are mostly complete. Unbelievable 21 items mann.
Is this the mark to a turning point in my life.<--- From my Newton slides! -.-

Okay i think i am kinda crappy today.
Still sad about my phone but oh wells. Gonna solve the problem tmr hopefully.
Theres PE tmr and i am so not looking forward to it. Maybe i am. TTTTJ! :D

I dont feel tired although i slept for barely 1 hour the night before previous.
OHH! Since its a turning point, i shall return to my NORMAL TT of watching my shows.
BOF! Hyun Joong is super hot. Kimbum is not bad either. And super lol. My mum loves KIMBUM!

Whee. I am so happy. Oh and random but Jael, where have you been this while.
You can't leave me without a word. Jessie, i am sure you know where he went. Tell him i need him.

AWESAMANTHA-- AWESOME SAMANTHA :P

2010-05-04T21:41:00.000+08:00

Researching on chinese compo and i found this. -.-

放弃一个很爱你的人，
并不痛苦。
放弃一个你很爱的人，
那才痛苦。
爱上一个不爱你的人，
那是更痛苦。
别因为而错爱，
别因为错爱而一生。

或许只有在离得最远的时候，
才能把曾经走过的那段日子，
看的最正确最清楚。

AWESAMANTHA-- AWESOME SAMANTHA :P

Nothing more than this.

2010-05-03T23:09:00.006+08:00

教室里那台风琴叮咚叮咚叮咛
像你告白的声音动作一直很轻
微笑看你送完信转身离开的背影
喜欢你字迹清秀的关心

那温热的牛奶瓶在我手中握紧
有你在的地方我总感觉很窝心
日子像旋转木马在脑海里转不停
出现那些你对我好的场景

你说过牵了手就算约定
但亲爱的那并不是爱情
就像来不及许愿的流星
再怎么美丽也只能是曾经

太美的承诺因为太年轻
但亲爱的那并不是爱情
就像是精灵住错了森林
那爱情错的很透明

It is fate that my phone isn't working

2010-05-03T20:20:00.005+08:00

他不会是个好男人

也不会是个好情人
你对我说我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过

我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过

Happy Birthday Qinfei!

You promised me to be happy,

And you must keep your word.

I will keep my word that i will cheer up.

At least when I am sad, its not about guys. Yup.

To all that are sad,

Cheer up! Its not the end of the world!

I know its kinda ironic how i am telling ppl to cheer up,

But yeah, even if you are sad,

Will that make a difference?

To do list, as usual!

2010-05-01T13:44:00.003+08:00

To do list, as usual!

1. Chinese 作文
2. Chinese 公函
3. LA presentation
4. LA reflections
5. LA Dictionary and meanings
6. LA rewrite and correct a paragraph
7. LA article review
8. Maths A homework 1
9. Maths A homework 3
10. Maths B homework
11. Maths Revise for test
12. MEP Youtubing symphonies
13. MEP Revising (Ask Ms Loo qn on tues)
14. MEP Analysis + Report (for JCTs)
15. MEP Harmony
16. MEP Analysis + Report (Mock test)
17. Chem Ws4
18. Chem (Print out chem bonding WSs)
19. Physics (Rephrasing of report)
20. Filing for ALL Subjects
21. SS project

AWESAMANTHA-- AWESOME SAMANTHA :P

:DD

2010-04-29T20:21:00.003+08:00

“Love is when you shed a tear and still want him, it's when he ignores you and you still love him, it's when he loves another girl but you still smile and say I'm happy for you, when all you really do is cry."

2010-04-28T22:32:00.004+08:00

I need a hug from you.

I LOVE YOU,

I need you, i want you.

Baby want you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes
I don't wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head

You're the one who set it up
Now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
But there is something left in my head

* CHORUS : I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feelings so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know

You were never satisfied no matter how I tried
Now you wanna say goodbye to me
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head

* REPEAT CHORUS

Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
Don't know which way to go
There is so much to say now between us
There ain't so much for you
There ain't so much for me anymore

* REPEAT CHORUS

AWESAMANTHA-- AWESOME SAMANTHA :P

2010-04-27T21:47:00.000+08:00

“Yes I love him. I love him more than anything else in this world and there is nothing that I would like better than to hold on to him forever. But I know it's not for the best. So no matter how much my heart is going to break, I've got to let him go so he can know just how much I love him. Maybe if I'm lucky, he'll come back, but if not, I can make it through this."

AWESAMANTHA-- AWESOME SAMANTHA :P

Shattered.

2010-04-26T18:54:00.004+08:00

I found this meaningful phrase online, which i felt that it miraculously expresses my feelings.

“I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out.And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart.And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you.But those words may forver stay in my heart-locked inside.Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know.”

You have nvr given me a proper answer.

AWESAMANTHA-- AWESOME SAMANTHA :P

...

2010-04-24T21:18:00.000+08:00

Many thing has been going thru my head recently.
Why is the whole world like against me.
Oh well, seriously, lets start of with monday this week

Monday had HC stuff, talk with Jasmine and Charmaine at night till 9.30
Things werent going very smoothly. (dinner out)

Tuesday was bad, long day plus group interview and kidsread when i was alr exhausted. Down down down down down... feeling super down. Jasmine is absent. Alone, really alone to fight the war. Struggling to keep myself happy for the whole day. I didnt want ppl seeing me like this. Really couldnt take it. Tried holding my tears back. But somehow, it just fell, really fell. And at that moment i really din want ppl to see me, but some ppl saw, some ppl.. Anw, thanks ppl who consoled me that day. And when i tell ppl i am okay, sometimes i am not. And i guess some ppl kinda know that i wasnt happy that day. MEP was bad too. I found out JCT tested me on lotsa things which i wasnt really well prepared. (dinner out)

Thoughts on tues: You really oughta be more observant and do not neglect other ppl's feelings

Wednesday wasnt good either. My HC speech was super crappy. I kinda gave up on HC aft the speech. Rushed off for training aft CT. Supposed to be an awesome day with lunch, civics and contact time at the right timings with a good speaker, but somehow, it wasnt that good. I didnt perform to my best during training. And i really felt tired. It was till someone told me that she was happy that things began to go smoother for me too. Checked my phone, and yeah. (dinner out)

Thurs, KABOOM. Ultra long day, not everything went well. Tuition--> Duathlon talk...
It was only at night that i realised that KL couldnt take part in Duathlon, he has some camp and stuff on. Understood. Havent done mnlx5 and havent studied for kaocha. Wondering about something i shouldnt be thinking about. Which made my day pretty pensive.

Friday, told Sabs that i wasnt running for Duathlon. And wheel couldnt run too, that leaves her running alone. Felt super bad. And i know you are angry with me. Well. HC results were out. And yeah. Expected. I alr werent feeling well. Slight fever and stuff liddat. They werent here. It was only during lunch did i start on one of the chapters of kaocha. Cos i din realise that i fell asleep while revising the previous night. Oh wells. Lunch time, Chubin smsed me saying that he can be my partner cos SW was tired aft NATs. Told Sabs that i could run with her. But at the same time, I think i pissed Steven off. Shall not elaborate. Yeah get the idea, the whole world is angry with me. Bowling training + team dinner. Saw Brenda at TM hahah spastic. CHEENAPOREAN.

Today: Duathlon. It went better than i expected though my muscles are aching like crap nao. I am sorry for running so slowly. Super guilty. Lunch was good. WATER (L) I really loved water, and treasured every drop of water i had today.

I want to know how you are thinking. Sometimes, i wished that i could lead a life without love.

AWESAMANTHA-- AWESOME SAMANTHA :PAWESAMANTHA-- AWESOME SAMANTHA :P

2010-04-21T12:11:00.006+08:00

Things to do:

1) Buy Frankenstein

2) Pay Abigail money for HC stuff.

3) Print LA reviews

4) Print Chinese Fan Wen

5) Mnlx 5

6) Start on MEP JCTs

7) Bring Aisyah's thumb drive!!

8) Duathlon Stuff

9) Filing

There was nothing to say, the day she left,
Just filled the suitcase full of regrets.
I hailed a taxi in the rain,
Looking for some place to ease the pain.
Then like an answered prayer,
I turned around and found you there.

Chorus:
You really know where to start,
Fixing my broken heart.
You really know what to do,
Your emotional tools,
Can cure any fool,
Whose dreams have fallen apart
Fixing a broken heart.

Now I don't understand, what I'm going through.
There must be a plan, that led me to you,
Because the hurt just disappears,
In every moment that you are near.
Just like an answered prayer,
You make the loneliness easy to bear.

You really know where to start,
Fixing my broken heart.
You really know what to do,
Your emotional tools,
Can cure any fool,
Whose dreams have fallen apart
Fixing a broken heart.

Soon the rain will stop falling baby,
And I'll forget the past,
Cause here we are at last.

Chorus(slightly different):

You really know where to start,
Fixing a broken heart.
You really know what to do,
Your emotional tools,
Can cure any fool,
Whose dreams have fallen apart
Fixing a broken heart.

AWESAMANTHA-- AWESOME SAMANTHA :P

I love you.

2010-04-18T00:09:00.003+08:00

如果你眼神能夠為我片刻的降臨
如果你能聽到心碎的聲音
沉默的守護著你沉默的等奇蹟
沉默的讓自己像是空氣

大家都吃著聊著笑著今晚多開心
最角落裡的我笑得多合群
盤底的洋蔥像我永遠是調味品
偷偷的看著你偷偷的隱藏著自己

如果你願意一層一層一層的剝開我的心
你會發現你會訝異
你是我最壓抑最深處的秘密

如果你願意一層一層一層的剝開我的心
你會鼻酸你會流淚
只要你能聽到我看到我的全心全意

聽妳說妳和妳的他們曖昧的空氣
我和我的絕望裝得很風趣
我就樣一顆洋蔥永遠是配角戲
多希望能與妳有一秒專屬的劇情

AWESAMANTHA-- AWESOME SAMANTHA :P

Mixed feelings

2010-04-14T23:33:00.004+08:00

It really seemed like an answer to me.

It was though you really knew what my question was.

If that was an answer, then why didn't you make the first move.

Well, maybe you did, but still.

Girls are girls, they do not like making first moves.

House Comm Nominations are really demanding.

I feel exhausted and restricted

AWESAMANTHA-- AWESOME SAMANTHA :P

Lingering thoughts

2010-04-14T23:07:00.008+08:00

Heh! Finally back on my blog.

I guess i do not have enuf time to blog in chinese.

From tdy onwards, i will try to condense my tots to just a small fraction of what i am thinking

Running for HC is not as hectic as hell week last year.

Maybe that is cos the worst is not yet here,

Or maybe i learnt how to manage my time.

With upcoming tests like Physics and Maths,

I can really feel myself being stretched like an overstretched rubberband,

which will not be able to return to its original shape.

Anyways, (condensed ~~milk~~ thoughts)

Somehow i feel it. I really feel it. Just that i pretend not to know.

Maybe my feeling can lead me the wrong way, just like what is discussed in class during LA tdy.

I am pretty sure that i am falling deeper,

And I am scared of falling deeper not because i am scared of pain,

But b'cos i am scared no one will be there to save me.

I stumbled upon some quotes online,

which turns out to be rather true,

rather close to what i am thinking.

Don’t force yourself to fall in love just because you think it’s your turn. Wait for a while, maybe cupids are having a hard time searching for the heart that deserves the kind of love you can give.

I really strongly believe that i should not be thinking about it, but it can't be helped.
The pain is there, my heart went to you and lost its way back.
When i found it, it doesn't want to follow me back.
It is probably trying to catch your heart,
which is not an easy task.

When i see you, my heart race.
Its as though its really trying to go after you.
Somehow, i feel that we should talk one day,
but i kinda predict that this day will never come.
Maybe i am not trying hard enuf,
Or maybe my heart decides to return.

This ain't the first, and from experience, crying won't help.
Crying made me feel worst in this circumstance.

Every teardrop is precious so better make sure that if you drop some, it’s worth crying for you can never pick them up and put them back to your eyes

AWESAMANTHA-- AWESOME SAMANTHA :P

The picture explains it all

2010-04-11T17:25:00.003+08:00

2010-04-11T15:55:00.002+08:00

I ought to study now,

but i am wondering why i am still online.

I really don't know how to face you.

AWESAMANTHA-- AWESOME SAMANTHA :P

2010-04-11T14:40:00.000+08:00

你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念里挣扎
你说会记得我还记得吗

AWESAMANTHA-- AWESOME SAMANTHA :P

2010-04-11T11:39:00.002+08:00

Things to do this week:
1. Study for KaoCha on Monday
2. Study for Maths Test on Friday
3. House Comm stuff. Organise the dates into my planner
4. Chinese Close Passage 3 and 4
5. LA Crichton passage, complete the questions
6. MEP Homeworkkk!
7. Maths A
8. Maths B
9. Prepare LA 3 mins speech
10. Article Review

AWESAMANTHA-- AWESOME SAMANTHA :P

To be done by the end of today

2010-04-06T12:44:00.003+08:00

1) Buy Frankenstein
2) Brave New World
3) Chinese MNLX
4) Physics Worksheet 3.2
5) LA summary
6) Chinese Chang Wen Suo Duan

Tempest:
Have lunch 12.50
Assemble at the Arts Hub at 1.30pm
Leaving at 1.45pm
AWESAMANTHA-- AWESOME SAMANTHA :P

2010-04-05T11:40:00.003+08:00

101 post! :D
Have been posting in Chinese recently, and it is getting weird to post in English. :D
Oh, i love oldies! :D

Congrats, you beat Annoying Orange!

It must have been love, but it's over now
It was all that I wanted, now I'm living without
It must have been love but it's over now

AWESAMANTHA-- AWESOME SAMANTHA :P

2010-04-04T15:17:00.002+08:00

爱得越深，伤得越深。

爱得更久，放得更难。

至今，我还没办法忘记你，但是，很肯定的是，我已爱上了别人。

本以为你就是我爱最久的人，但是，今日我才发现，其实，那不是爱。

爱爱爱爱了几回

也明白其中滋味
付出的从来不会等于收回
我却还在等待着谁能出现

伤伤伤伤了几回
也曾经为爱憔悴
爱情里好人总比坏人狼狈
我却还是学不会狠心对谁

AWESAMANTHA-- AWESOME SAMANTHA :P

2010-04-03T12:46:00.002+08:00

从今天开始，我将会在和秀珍轮流用华语来 blog。

准备O 水准的高级华文考试！

这是我们唯一一个O 水准的科目，所以一定要拿到A。

用华语来 blog 一点也不容易，比起英语来说，我 blog 得很慢。

好吧！应该说到终点，不然离题！哈哈。

学校的体育天(SportsDay) 超级无敌好玩！

我爱你，Charmaine Daryanani! 我收到你给我的气球非常开心！

或许你看不懂我所写的，但是，你应该感受到我所要表达的一切吧！

你最近不说话怎么了为什么
是不是有什么事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单有点乱有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁

AWESAMANTHA-- AWESOME SAMANTHA :P

Homework!

2010-04-01T07:49:00.002+08:00

1) Practice Summary
~~2) Crichton Handout~~
3) Handout on Chinese/Nature
4) Necessary research as specified in SOW.
5) Brave New World?

AWESAMANTHA-- AWESOME SAMANTHA :P

2010-03-30T22:18:00.001+08:00

Scared and tired. No mood to blog now.

Bai.

Posting updates tmr

AWESAMANTHA-- AWESOME SAMANTHA :P

To do

2010-03-29T16:21:00.002+08:00

To do:

1. Cut my long nails

2. Nap for at least 2 hours

3. Study and complete Physics ws

4. Print stuff

5. Read book if i have time

6. Maths A homework

AWESAMANTHA-- AWESOME SAMANTHA :P

Fixing a heart to lead the way

2010-03-29T16:11:00.002+08:00

Today was a rather productive day at school.

Paid attention in lessons. Even those that i don't like.

Early in the morning we had some bowling meeting.

Rather awesome i would say.

Wrote down the team line up blahh.

Aft school went to Mac with Qinfei, i did not eat much cos of my Anti Fast Food Diet. :D

Went library to borrow some books which is highly unlikely of me

Cos i HATE reading.

I am sorry Jael and Jessie. :(

Actually, if you had more courage, i would have agreed.

I really didn't know that you felt that way.

I am really rather confused over how i felt for this whole week.

I guess i should just give up on everything and let my heart lead the way.

If you found my msn on fb, then why ask me for my msn-.-

AWESAMANTHA-- AWESOME SAMANTHA :P

Dilemma

2010-03-28T09:51:00.004+08:00

OH WELLS, I really havent been posting for ages.
HMM, i am really really sorry Jessie
I really din know that what i said can cause you so much to lose
Oh, i think i should post a foto of Jael one day and you all will get a shock out of your lives.

I need to get many things done during this weekend which is half gone-.-
1. LA stuff Ms Tan asked me to do
2. Find a date for the class to go for the chinese thing
3. Chinese Summary and Ti Gang
4. Go gym to run!

Oh, and i owe alot of ppl money!:(
1. Charmaine--$5
2. Jasmine--$17
3. Duathlon--$14
4. Yandong--$2.20
5. Phillina--$6.30

Anymore??

I felt like i have been led on a road which hints no end to it.
What might seem halfway to me might only be 1% of the whole road.
On the journey to a destination which might not even exist,
should i continue, or should i give up.
Caught in a dilemma.

I really wished you felt the same way as i do,

but who knows, you might just be friendly.

Oh yes, I am freaked out by some stalker.

Omg seriously stop stalking me.

AWESAMANTHA-- AWESOME SAMANTHA :P

2010-03-13T22:25:00.001+08:00

ANNOYING ORANGE!!
Irritatedddd

AWESAMANTHA-- AWESOME SAMANTHA :P

MY LOVEE

2010-03-08T22:19:00.002+08:00

I love you, Jael.
You always make me so happy.
But you like to do "you know... okay nvm"
Recently you are very down

BUT

Think of me and it will brighten your day.
You really should stop thinking about those ppl who are not worth your concern
In my eyes, you are awesome and I believe tt all your frens think so too.:D

I miss you alot, Jael sorry for spamming you with ____'s name i know you dont like to hear his name, but sorry, i will try to minimise talking about his name

I love long phone calls with you which i tend to be not focus on sometimes, or even dose off when you are talking to me, but tt happens to all of my other frens too, you can ask Jessie. HAHAHA! Oh FYI, i am talking to you on the phone now too! <3

Oh yeah i love your name <3

To my awesome wife: Hehe you should also stop thinking about that retarded piece of shit.

P.s Jael, i think you are as troubled as my fren. LOL. Don't be jealous k, she is just my close close fren! (:

AWESAMANTHA-- AWESOME SAMANTHA :P

Fever again?!

2010-03-04T08:45:00.002+08:00

I kinda got affected by everyone's mood nowadays
I am kinda sad.
I don't know what to do
I get pissed off easily
I am tired and i look damn haggard
I got one pimple now
I hate all this things
I hate problems
I got a headache. GAHHH

How i wish i dont know anything,

How i wish the world consist just of us.

SAMANTHA STOP THINKING!

SAMANTHA CHEER UP!

SAMANTHA DON'T GIVE UP!

AWESAMANTHA-- AWESOME SAMANTHA :P

LA LA LA

2010-02-25T22:29:00.003+08:00

YO!
HEHE NO HOMEWORK LIST TODAYYY
cos its like the last second academic day of the term. wooots.
although its kinda bad to have maths test to round off the term,
but it has a chinese cultural night to balance it!

WOOHOO we are going to indonesia on a one day trip soon! :D
GNA study for maths test now.

I just want to shut my mind off thinking all those stuff.
I have to learn how to spend my time more wisely.

I HATE YOUR SARCASM. :(

AWESAMANTHA-- AWESOME SAMANTHA :P

Blog first then homework list:D

2010-02-21T11:03:00.005+08:00

This week was rather tough and horrendous
I haven't handed in my SS work which was due on friday
Okay to my main point
I am rather confused nowadays
I like the way you smile at me and wave at me
You are really the perfect guy in my eyes
But idk if its admiration or do i really like you.
Unfortunately, i cant tell
I really want to know how you feel,
even if i know you don't like me.
I like you innocence, and i like you politeness
But i do get quite upset when you do not reply my smses.

BLEAGHHH, as usual, HOMEWORK SHIT

1. SS reflections
2. Chinese Journal
3. Article Review
4. Chinese Mock Exam Paper
5. Maths A
6. Maths B
7. Chinese Summary
8. Chemistry Worksheet 4
9. Study for Maths test

AWESAMANTHA-- AWESOME SAMANTHA :P

2010-02-19T16:56:00.002+08:00

i dont know why i just cant forget what sin you have done.
i will never forgive you till you know what you have done and apologise.
NOT ONLY to me but to those whom you have hurt.

SABRINA, ME, WHEELING AND JINGWEN are the only ones in 2C. I am leaving now so that leaves SABRINA ALONE there to be the light bulb. HEHEHE!

AWESAMANTHA-- AWESOME SAMANTHA :P

2010-02-09T14:35:00.002+08:00

Today you spoke to me which is highly abnormal
BLAHHHH.

WOOOHOOOOO I LOVE my 2C closer frens: Qinfei, Sabrina, (MO+KO)^2-2(MOKO), Valerie, Wheel, Big Butt, Jude, TABATA and Rachel's LOVER.

Thank you awesome wife! :D
AWESAMANTHA-- AWESOME SAMANTHA :P

yes it is you

2010-02-08T12:13:00.002+08:00

I can't stand you,
its just irritating cos you like to show off
and you just like be super AP
what is your problem,
can you stop being so jealous,
stop bitching about others
when you are doing it yourself
PLEASE STOP IT cos its super irritating.
You know who you are and i dont want talk about it anymore cos you spoil my mood

2C/09 pwns!
AWESAMANTHA-- AWESOME SAMANTHA :P

Grandma hse!

2010-02-06T16:52:00.003+08:00

My parents are back in singapore for the new year.
Awesome!
Now i got new specs cos my degree went up by BOOOOMMMZ
and i have to wear contacts cos of the sudden increase too
HEHEHE! at first mum and dad super opposed it!:(

NO internet at GM place. :O
GAHHH! at my mum side cousin house naoo!:D
BYEE!

AWESAMANTHA-- AWESOME SAMANTHA :P